Wednesday, April 18, 2012
Monday, April 16, 2012
Give Away.
Hey one of my favorite blogs is Hosting a MAJOR giveaway.
Y'all better stop by and get some entries in..
She's amazing and ever SO gorgeous.
With an adorable little Girl Named Alexis with the cutest fuzzy baby hair.
http://prebabyblog.com/
Really get over there!!!
Like NOW.
Y'all better stop by and get some entries in..
She's amazing and ever SO gorgeous.
With an adorable little Girl Named Alexis with the cutest fuzzy baby hair.
http://prebabyblog.com/
Really get over there!!!
Like NOW.
Monday, April 9, 2012
Ready set GO.
Fertility/Infertility is a MESS.
i've wanted to write this post for awhile now. But, every time i started writing i'd end up deleting it and saying i'd start another day.
Blah.. that's how's it's felt.
Well here goes nothing and or everything?!?!
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So as you may or may not know i haven't had health insurance in the past, Well with the changes with the whole Health Care reform i was able to get on my Dads Health Insurance!! (what a relief)
Got looking into the Plan and into doctors and found out that ALL fertility testing was covered and that most treatments were too. (all non surgical testing & treatment)
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Found a Doctor at Orem Community OBGYN and Made an appointment!!!
hip hip hooray. excited and anxious all over.
i had no idea how the first appointment would go, what he'd say and or do or NOT do.
had My appointment and it went SO good. We talked and reviewed past medical history, fears, concerns, worries, and every question in the book.
He assured me that the Cycle Day 3 testing i had done about 6 months prior all looked good and normal (when the other doc called with results left a voice message saying all was normal But, still you worry!)
after talking did an exam (i also found out my uterus is Larger than normal((weird)) and than discussed the BIG game plan, Full RPL (repeat pregnancy loss) Blood Testing ((consists of Autoimmune & Blood Clotting Disorders, Lupus ECT.)) if everything looked good and normal start 3 rounds of Clomid with increasing doses each month 50,100,150.
so ecstatic. could NOT be Happier! really thought he'd have me come back in 3 months before doing any testing of treatments! way to go DoC!
SSSSSSSoooooooooooooooooo a few days go by and i find out everything looked fine in the blood testing and i get to start Clomid RIGHT away!
and while typing this i took my 5th and final pill for the month!!
(( this feels really rambled and mushed sorry ))
Clomid has not been bad, slight head ache and WEIRD cracked out dreams that are so Vivid!! waking up and thinking WTF?!?! and tired. nothing major.
AAAAAALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL GONE!
i've wanted to write this post for awhile now. But, every time i started writing i'd end up deleting it and saying i'd start another day.
Blah.. that's how's it's felt.
Well here goes nothing and or everything?!?!
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So as you may or may not know i haven't had health insurance in the past, Well with the changes with the whole Health Care reform i was able to get on my Dads Health Insurance!! (what a relief)
Got looking into the Plan and into doctors and found out that ALL fertility testing was covered and that most treatments were too. (all non surgical testing & treatment)
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Found a Doctor at Orem Community OBGYN and Made an appointment!!!
hip hip hooray. excited and anxious all over.
i had no idea how the first appointment would go, what he'd say and or do or NOT do.
had My appointment and it went SO good. We talked and reviewed past medical history, fears, concerns, worries, and every question in the book.
He assured me that the Cycle Day 3 testing i had done about 6 months prior all looked good and normal (when the other doc called with results left a voice message saying all was normal But, still you worry!)
after talking did an exam (i also found out my uterus is Larger than normal((weird)) and than discussed the BIG game plan, Full RPL (repeat pregnancy loss) Blood Testing ((consists of Autoimmune & Blood Clotting Disorders, Lupus ECT.)) if everything looked good and normal start 3 rounds of Clomid with increasing doses each month 50,100,150.
so ecstatic. could NOT be Happier! really thought he'd have me come back in 3 months before doing any testing of treatments! way to go DoC!
SSSSSSSoooooooooooooooooo a few days go by and i find out everything looked fine in the blood testing and i get to start Clomid RIGHT away!
and while typing this i took my 5th and final pill for the month!!
(( this feels really rambled and mushed sorry ))
Clomid has not been bad, slight head ache and WEIRD cracked out dreams that are so Vivid!! waking up and thinking WTF?!?! and tired. nothing major.
AAAAAALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL GONE!
Saturday, April 7, 2012
Bad.
I got a cold and a really emotional period (more about that in the next post)
Haven't been to the Gym in almost TWO weeks...
My Goal for this week is to Blog more I've got some good fertility/infertility news and you know it go to the gym THREE times.
Be back later for a much longer post.
Ta ta for now.
Friday, April 6, 2012
Woot woot.
Hey y'all my Favorite Blog and the cutest baby girl in the world is having an Amazon Give away.
Like who wouldn't want $50 for Amazon, I've had a wish list going on for awhile now.
Eeeekkkk...
Go to http://www.teandbaby.com/2012/04/amazon-giftcard-giveaway.html?showComment=1333772270692#c1343861653127366739
And follow directions to enter!!!
By the way What would you Buy if you Won???
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
Viva Las Vegas
We have had a tripped planned with a bunch of friends to Las Vegas for presidents day weekend for quite a while!!!
With my grandpas health we had canceled our trip with not knowing what was going to happen or how soon anything was going to happen. I was scared that if we went he’d pass while we were gone and very much needed with family. ---After he passed we were going back and forth about whether or not to go. We knew I could no longer take any work off due to missing a few days for the services.
Wednesday night we went to Salt Lake City after work to hang out with a few of the people who had flown in for the trip. (it was cheaper to fly into SLC and ride down with a few that were driving, than to fly into Las Vegas)
oh and it made me ache to go even more.. on our 35 min drive home we talked… and what the hell we should just drive down Friday after work. We could be there before 10pm Vegas time! And drive home Monday afternoon.
I am SO GLAD we went, it was such a stress releaser. And we got to see our friends we hadn’t seen in almost a year. Friends from California, New Jersey, New York, Washington, South Dakota, Illinois… I feel like I’m missing some.
I was nice to hang out in the sun, going swimming , and walk the strip all hours of the night.
And I miss them all already!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
With my grandpas health we had canceled our trip with not knowing what was going to happen or how soon anything was going to happen. I was scared that if we went he’d pass while we were gone and very much needed with family. ---After he passed we were going back and forth about whether or not to go. We knew I could no longer take any work off due to missing a few days for the services.
Wednesday night we went to Salt Lake City after work to hang out with a few of the people who had flown in for the trip. (it was cheaper to fly into SLC and ride down with a few that were driving, than to fly into Las Vegas)
oh and it made me ache to go even more.. on our 35 min drive home we talked… and what the hell we should just drive down Friday after work. We could be there before 10pm Vegas time! And drive home Monday afternoon.
I am SO GLAD we went, it was such a stress releaser. And we got to see our friends we hadn’t seen in almost a year. Friends from California, New Jersey, New York, Washington, South Dakota, Illinois… I feel like I’m missing some.
I was nice to hang out in the sun, going swimming , and walk the strip all hours of the night.
And I miss them all already!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Aching Heart.
Well I’ll go back a bit…
My amazing Grandfather had been in remission for his lung cancer.
(he did chemo months before and got through it all ( told you he’s amazing))
Christmas Day night he just wasn’t right so he was taking to the ER,
they did a CT scan and found many small tumors in his Brain.
He chose to go through radiation and fight!
he had gotten through chemo and would get through radiation too!!!
At a doctors appointment they had found that he lung cancer was back and had also spread into his lymphoids.
He finished his Radiation and had good days and bad.
we noticed an infection on his hear didn’t look too good and he was admitted to the hospital on a Sunday evening.
He has to go through a heavy round of antibiotics.
I few days later he was transferred into a rehab health center across from the hospital.
Things went downhill from there..
after a few days we fought to have him released so he could be in the comfort of his own home.
Hospice was called.
My loving husband was amazing and helped my grandfather and aunt immensely, he stayed by my grandfathers side all night long meeting his every need.
My Aunt, father, Husband, sister, her 3 children , and I spent Thursday night hang out at grandpas house talking about all of our memories. I am ever so grateful for that peaceful night.
Grandpa wasn’t looking to great and his breathing had changed quite a bit.
we knew the end was in sight, and we were thinking a week maybe two tops
He passed the next morning right before 8:00 am.
just FOUR days after coming home from the rehab nursing center.
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Eugene "Gene" Ruel Evans
(July 26, 1927 - February 3, 2012)
Eugene “Gene” Ruel Evans Eugene Ruel Evans was born July 26, 1927, in Lehi to Ruel and Beulah May (Bone) Evans and passed from this life on February 3, 2012, at his home in Provo after a courageous battle with cancer.
A 1945 graduate of Lehi High School, Gene participated in many sports including football, basketball and tennis, and helped lead his team to the state championship football game his senior season. He attended the University of Utah where he played as a running back for the Utes and graduated with a pharmaceutical degree and worked several years in the area as a pharmacist. Later in life, Gene worked many years as an import specialist for D&L Supply until he retired a few weeks before his death.
He married his sweetheart, Marilynn Kirk Evans in Las Vegas on January 29, 1959.
Gene loved the outdoors and sports of all kinds, most especially football, hunting and golf. He was a proud founding member of Riverside Country Club in Provo where he enjoyed playing golf and the fellowship of others. He had many other hobbies and passions as well, including gardening and photography.
Gene had many friends and spent a lot of time doing quiet acts of service to others without ever seeking recognition or acknowledgment.
Gene was preceded in death by his wife Marilynn, his parents and his sister, Joan. He leaves behind his children Rick Evans of Provo, Terry (Randy) Gibson of Provo and Tahlequah, OK, and Dan Vance of Salt Lake City; brothers Mike (Diane) Evans of Helena, MT, and Morgan (Charlyn) Evans of Salt Lake City; sister Colleen Abate of Syracuse, six grandchildren, four great-grandchildren, and a host of nieces, nephews, friends and loved ones.
Memorial services will be held on Tuesday, February 7, at 11 am, 118 East Main, Lehi. Interment will follow in the Lehi Cemetery. Serving as pallbearers will be Rick Evans, Dan Vance, Tyler Evans, Kenny Evans, Renzo Dessens, Noah Garrett, Randy Gibson and Shawn Arthur. Honorary pallbearers are Morgan Evans, Mike Evans, Wyatt Garrett, Bear Morgan Garrett and Treven Evans. Friends and family may call on Monday, February 6, from 6 – 8 pm at Wing Mortuary and one hour prior to services at the mortuary. Online guest book at wingmortuary.com.
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It all happened SO fast.
His services were better and more beautiful than anyone could have asked for.
He was and still is a very very loved man!!!
My amazing Grandfather had been in remission for his lung cancer.
(he did chemo months before and got through it all ( told you he’s amazing))
Christmas Day night he just wasn’t right so he was taking to the ER,
they did a CT scan and found many small tumors in his Brain.
He chose to go through radiation and fight!
he had gotten through chemo and would get through radiation too!!!
At a doctors appointment they had found that he lung cancer was back and had also spread into his lymphoids.
He finished his Radiation and had good days and bad.
we noticed an infection on his hear didn’t look too good and he was admitted to the hospital on a Sunday evening.
He has to go through a heavy round of antibiotics.
I few days later he was transferred into a rehab health center across from the hospital.
Things went downhill from there..
after a few days we fought to have him released so he could be in the comfort of his own home.
Hospice was called.
My loving husband was amazing and helped my grandfather and aunt immensely, he stayed by my grandfathers side all night long meeting his every need.
My Aunt, father, Husband, sister, her 3 children , and I spent Thursday night hang out at grandpas house talking about all of our memories. I am ever so grateful for that peaceful night.
Grandpa wasn’t looking to great and his breathing had changed quite a bit.
we knew the end was in sight, and we were thinking a week maybe two tops
He passed the next morning right before 8:00 am.
just FOUR days after coming home from the rehab nursing center.
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Eugene "Gene" Ruel Evans
(July 26, 1927 - February 3, 2012)
Eugene “Gene” Ruel Evans Eugene Ruel Evans was born July 26, 1927, in Lehi to Ruel and Beulah May (Bone) Evans and passed from this life on February 3, 2012, at his home in Provo after a courageous battle with cancer.
A 1945 graduate of Lehi High School, Gene participated in many sports including football, basketball and tennis, and helped lead his team to the state championship football game his senior season. He attended the University of Utah where he played as a running back for the Utes and graduated with a pharmaceutical degree and worked several years in the area as a pharmacist. Later in life, Gene worked many years as an import specialist for D&L Supply until he retired a few weeks before his death.
He married his sweetheart, Marilynn Kirk Evans in Las Vegas on January 29, 1959.
Gene loved the outdoors and sports of all kinds, most especially football, hunting and golf. He was a proud founding member of Riverside Country Club in Provo where he enjoyed playing golf and the fellowship of others. He had many other hobbies and passions as well, including gardening and photography.
Gene had many friends and spent a lot of time doing quiet acts of service to others without ever seeking recognition or acknowledgment.
Gene was preceded in death by his wife Marilynn, his parents and his sister, Joan. He leaves behind his children Rick Evans of Provo, Terry (Randy) Gibson of Provo and Tahlequah, OK, and Dan Vance of Salt Lake City; brothers Mike (Diane) Evans of Helena, MT, and Morgan (Charlyn) Evans of Salt Lake City; sister Colleen Abate of Syracuse, six grandchildren, four great-grandchildren, and a host of nieces, nephews, friends and loved ones.
Memorial services will be held on Tuesday, February 7, at 11 am, 118 East Main, Lehi. Interment will follow in the Lehi Cemetery. Serving as pallbearers will be Rick Evans, Dan Vance, Tyler Evans, Kenny Evans, Renzo Dessens, Noah Garrett, Randy Gibson and Shawn Arthur. Honorary pallbearers are Morgan Evans, Mike Evans, Wyatt Garrett, Bear Morgan Garrett and Treven Evans. Friends and family may call on Monday, February 6, from 6 – 8 pm at Wing Mortuary and one hour prior to services at the mortuary. Online guest book at wingmortuary.com.
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It all happened SO fast.
His services were better and more beautiful than anyone could have asked for.
He was and still is a very very loved man!!!
Gah
I need to blog more!!!
I go through phases where I Blog a ton then I don't at all for awhile.
CHEERS , here's to trying to blog more!!!
I go through phases where I Blog a ton then I don't at all for awhile.
CHEERS , here's to trying to blog more!!!
Sunday, February 12, 2012
Weekly Goal.
A close friend and fellow blogger does these every week and I'm really gonna try.
This week I want to get myself to the Gym at least twice.
I was doing really good and now not so much.
Still being pretty good on what I eat. And very very little soda.
Actually getting to the point where i'll crave Water. Crazy!!!
Friday, January 13, 2012
2012 .
Feeling like it’s a good day to post some 2012s resolutions!
Get Healthy & LOSE some Weight!!!
I’ve been REALLY good so far, eating healthier, drinking more water, limiting soda to only on Saturdays OR after I’ve done FIFTY miles of mixed cardio at the gym.
9am- Breakfast has been GREEN smoothies- spinach, blueberries, banana, Greek yogurt, ice, & a Splash of OJ.
11am- Snack, an apple or a peanut granola bar.
1pm- Lunch, a sandwich on a whole wheat bagel thin with Lunch meat, 2 tbsp. grated cheese, Spinach & mustard.
3pm- Snack, Greek yogurt, apple, or peanut granola bar whichever one I didn’t have in the morning.
6pm- dinner, lean meat, vegetables, some kinda grain, and glass of skim milk.
And somewhere in there trying to drink 3 liters of water a day it’s 101.4 ounces!!!
I’ve allowed myself to eat what I’d like on the weekends but, I’m still watching what I eat as well. SODA Saturdays.
And it’s been me want sesame chicken on Saturday with a pepsi.
Go to the GYM 2+ a week, need to get better at this.
Being back to work from so much time off for the holidays has worn me out.
But, glad to know I’m doing something by eating better!!!
SAVE MONEY & LEARN TO BUDGET!!
I’ve been really bad at not saving money and watching what we’re actually spending our money on!
Not this year. I will learn. Save save & SAVE. We want to be able to buy a house in 2013!!!
Be Happier, don’t get so sad so easily, and live every day to the fullest.
Well that’s it for today, can’t think of what else. LOL
Get Healthy & LOSE some Weight!!!
I’ve been REALLY good so far, eating healthier, drinking more water, limiting soda to only on Saturdays OR after I’ve done FIFTY miles of mixed cardio at the gym.
9am- Breakfast has been GREEN smoothies- spinach, blueberries, banana, Greek yogurt, ice, & a Splash of OJ.
11am- Snack, an apple or a peanut granola bar.
1pm- Lunch, a sandwich on a whole wheat bagel thin with Lunch meat, 2 tbsp. grated cheese, Spinach & mustard.
3pm- Snack, Greek yogurt, apple, or peanut granola bar whichever one I didn’t have in the morning.
6pm- dinner, lean meat, vegetables, some kinda grain, and glass of skim milk.
And somewhere in there trying to drink 3 liters of water a day it’s 101.4 ounces!!!
I’ve allowed myself to eat what I’d like on the weekends but, I’m still watching what I eat as well. SODA Saturdays.
And it’s been me want sesame chicken on Saturday with a pepsi.
Go to the GYM 2+ a week, need to get better at this.
Being back to work from so much time off for the holidays has worn me out.
But, glad to know I’m doing something by eating better!!!
SAVE MONEY & LEARN TO BUDGET!!
I’ve been really bad at not saving money and watching what we’re actually spending our money on!
Not this year. I will learn. Save save & SAVE. We want to be able to buy a house in 2013!!!
Be Happier, don’t get so sad so easily, and live every day to the fullest.
Well that’s it for today, can’t think of what else. LOL
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Said before but some unsaid..
I know I’ve said it before but, lemme say it again..
Trying to Conceive is HARD !
I know for some of you,
well most of you it wasn't hard and it wasn’t trying!
I have days where I wonder if we’ll ever have babies of our own.
Sad but true.
I try my hardest and stick to my guns,
I know we’ve been pregnant before multiple times in fact but,
it’s just the little one not sticking!!!
I’m weighing a little heavy about 184 eeekkkkk!
so my short term goal is to be healthier, and lose some of this weight!
I’d like to be in the 150’s. I finally have health insurance so I’m planning to see a new doctor in May!
Lose weight, and see a new doc! Get a plan on where to go from there.
I DO KNOW I WANT TO BE PREGNANT BY VALENTINES DAY 2013!!!!
we haven’t been “TRYiNG” this whole time since our last loss Oct, 2010 but there hasn’t been any prevention either. Sixteen months of NOTHING !
I know we’re not in the best financial or living situation but I know no one is EVER 100% ready for a baby!
and I really wouldn’t mind living with my Mother in Law for the first few months after having a baby.
dresser/changing station and a Porta-crib is all that would mainly be needed at that point of course along with some baby gear.
I’ve come a long way, I was in a bad depression for a very long time.
I was on Zoloft for about a year and a half.
it helped but one day I woke up and I was done with it.
(I had forgotten to take it a few times and just decided that was the hint that I was ready to move on without it)
I still have sad/hard days. Some of them can be REALLY SAD and REALLY HARD (like panic attacks with an endless stream of tears)BUT, the harder ones come less and less as time goes on and as I grow into who I’m ment to be.
I know i have days where I can be quite bitter and no one can really understand it.
it’s hard, the hardest thing for me has been Facebook.
I have deleted the App on my phone multiple times.
to see an ultrasound picture and think really…? Didn’t you JUST have a baby?
someone even said to me “why can I be upset with them? Your just genetically different than them”
it really ReALLY bothered me, this was and is a close friend why can’t he understand the pain???
The friends and people I know that have been through fertility all have babies now.
I feel like I’m the only one still without a baby to hold of my own.
I don’t know if these friends and people care to still talk to me about the hurt and sadness.
they have their child to tend to and I don’t know if it’s bothering them.
please speak up, I still need you!
speak up if you too are dealing with fertility issues/repeat pregnancy loss we could all always need a new friend to help us through it all.
I know this isn’t the best writing and it’s very jumbled!
but sometimes proof reading it I end up deleting half of it.
I know it was written because it needed to come out so there. J
much Love, ME!
Feel free as well to email me @
whatbeginswithd@gmail.com
Trying to Conceive is HARD !
I know for some of you,
well most of you it wasn't hard and it wasn’t trying!
I have days where I wonder if we’ll ever have babies of our own.
Sad but true.
I try my hardest and stick to my guns,
I know we’ve been pregnant before multiple times in fact but,
it’s just the little one not sticking!!!
I’m weighing a little heavy about 184 eeekkkkk!
so my short term goal is to be healthier, and lose some of this weight!
I’d like to be in the 150’s. I finally have health insurance so I’m planning to see a new doctor in May!
Lose weight, and see a new doc! Get a plan on where to go from there.
I DO KNOW I WANT TO BE PREGNANT BY VALENTINES DAY 2013!!!!
we haven’t been “TRYiNG” this whole time since our last loss Oct, 2010 but there hasn’t been any prevention either. Sixteen months of NOTHING !
I know we’re not in the best financial or living situation but I know no one is EVER 100% ready for a baby!
and I really wouldn’t mind living with my Mother in Law for the first few months after having a baby.
dresser/changing station and a Porta-crib is all that would mainly be needed at that point of course along with some baby gear.
I’ve come a long way, I was in a bad depression for a very long time.
I was on Zoloft for about a year and a half.
it helped but one day I woke up and I was done with it.
(I had forgotten to take it a few times and just decided that was the hint that I was ready to move on without it)
I still have sad/hard days. Some of them can be REALLY SAD and REALLY HARD (like panic attacks with an endless stream of tears)BUT, the harder ones come less and less as time goes on and as I grow into who I’m ment to be.
I know i have days where I can be quite bitter and no one can really understand it.
it’s hard, the hardest thing for me has been Facebook.
I have deleted the App on my phone multiple times.
to see an ultrasound picture and think really…? Didn’t you JUST have a baby?
someone even said to me “why can I be upset with them? Your just genetically different than them”
it really ReALLY bothered me, this was and is a close friend why can’t he understand the pain???
The friends and people I know that have been through fertility all have babies now.
I feel like I’m the only one still without a baby to hold of my own.
I don’t know if these friends and people care to still talk to me about the hurt and sadness.
they have their child to tend to and I don’t know if it’s bothering them.
please speak up, I still need you!
speak up if you too are dealing with fertility issues/repeat pregnancy loss we could all always need a new friend to help us through it all.
I know this isn’t the best writing and it’s very jumbled!
but sometimes proof reading it I end up deleting half of it.
I know it was written because it needed to come out so there. J
much Love, ME!
Feel free as well to email me @
whatbeginswithd@gmail.com
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