exactly where i left off...

well i'm back with a little push and encouragement from an amazing friend  :)

last i left you all i had finished my last pill for my first round of CLOMID!
and boy did i have Hot Flashes, Mood Swings & Headaches galore !

ALL GONE...

APRIL—

05^th – 09^th CLOMID 50mg  cycle days # 3-7 , + OPK 04/15 = BFN

i held alot of hope that all i needed was a little bit of clomid to boost our chances, after all we had been pregnant twice naturally!

 but indeed round one of clomid was a fail!   But i have a strong husband by my side who's been my ROCK!   He held me tight as i pouted as that first round was not successful. 

MAY—

02^nd – 06^th CLOMID 100mg cycle days # 3-7 , + OPK 05/14 = BFN

we went up to a higher dose and with that came more side effects, dreams got crazier, hot flashes got hotter, mood swings got moodier, & those damn headaches were intense.
but it's only showing that the meds are working, it's a small price to pay for the possible outcome of a little babe growing inside my belly. 

 

sadly just as round one was a Fail so was round two.
i was becoming a much stronger person month after month.
after all i was becoming a warrior in the battle of  "IF"

ohhh no.  June was rough but, it was my birthday and anniversary month so surly it had to bring loads of luck with it.

whoa did i think round two had side effects, 

went up yet again to an even higher dose and with that came more side effects, dreams went from crazy to insane, hot flashes felt like i was sleeping in a dry sauna, mood swings got to crazy bitch status, & those damn DAMN headaches were SO painful & ever so intense.

 

JUNE—

05/31 – 06/04  CLOMID  150mg days #3-7 , + OPK 06/12 = BFN

i went through three rounds of clomid, i ovulated 3 times and yet those three months i did not become pregnant.  i begin to worry that it was something much more.   I knew of close friend whom clomid didn't work for and they tried other things, maybe i was just one of them too.

i did feel completely defeated, i was scared and SO angry!!