We have had a tripped planned with a bunch of friends to Las Vegas for presidents day weekend for quite a while!!!
With my grandpas health we had canceled our trip with not knowing what was going to happen or how soon anything was going to happen. I was scared that if we went he’d pass while we were gone and very much needed with family. ---After he passed we were going back and forth about whether or not to go. We knew I could no longer take any work off due to missing a few days for the services.
Wednesday night we went to Salt Lake City after work to hang out with a few of the people who had flown in for the trip. (it was cheaper to fly into SLC and ride down with a few that were driving, than to fly into Las Vegas)
oh and it made me ache to go even more.. on our 35 min drive home we talked… and what the hell we should just drive down Friday after work. We could be there before 10pm Vegas time! And drive home Monday afternoon.
I am SO GLAD we went, it was such a stress releaser. And we got to see our friends we hadn’t seen in almost a year. Friends from California, New Jersey, New York, Washington, South Dakota, Illinois… I feel like I’m missing some.
I was nice to hang out in the sun, going swimming , and walk the strip all hours of the night.
And I miss them all already!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
Aching Heart.
Well I’ll go back a bit…
My amazing Grandfather had been in remission for his lung cancer.
(he did chemo months before and got through it all ( told you he’s amazing))
Christmas Day night he just wasn’t right so he was taking to the ER,
they did a CT scan and found many small tumors in his Brain.
He chose to go through radiation and fight!
he had gotten through chemo and would get through radiation too!!!
At a doctors appointment they had found that he lung cancer was back and had also spread into his lymphoids.
He finished his Radiation and had good days and bad.
we noticed an infection on his hear didn’t look too good and he was admitted to the hospital on a Sunday evening.
He has to go through a heavy round of antibiotics.
I few days later he was transferred into a rehab health center across from the hospital.
Things went downhill from there..
after a few days we fought to have him released so he could be in the comfort of his own home.
Hospice was called.
My loving husband was amazing and helped my grandfather and aunt immensely, he stayed by my grandfathers side all night long meeting his every need.
My Aunt, father, Husband, sister, her 3 children , and I spent Thursday night hang out at grandpas house talking about all of our memories. I am ever so grateful for that peaceful night.
Grandpa wasn’t looking to great and his breathing had changed quite a bit.
we knew the end was in sight, and we were thinking a week maybe two tops
He passed the next morning right before 8:00 am.
just FOUR days after coming home from the rehab nursing center.
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Eugene "Gene" Ruel Evans
(July 26, 1927 - February 3, 2012)
Eugene “Gene” Ruel Evans Eugene Ruel Evans was born July 26, 1927, in Lehi to Ruel and Beulah May (Bone) Evans and passed from this life on February 3, 2012, at his home in Provo after a courageous battle with cancer.
A 1945 graduate of Lehi High School, Gene participated in many sports including football, basketball and tennis, and helped lead his team to the state championship football game his senior season. He attended the University of Utah where he played as a running back for the Utes and graduated with a pharmaceutical degree and worked several years in the area as a pharmacist. Later in life, Gene worked many years as an import specialist for D&L Supply until he retired a few weeks before his death.
He married his sweetheart, Marilynn Kirk Evans in Las Vegas on January 29, 1959.
Gene loved the outdoors and sports of all kinds, most especially football, hunting and golf. He was a proud founding member of Riverside Country Club in Provo where he enjoyed playing golf and the fellowship of others. He had many other hobbies and passions as well, including gardening and photography.
Gene had many friends and spent a lot of time doing quiet acts of service to others without ever seeking recognition or acknowledgment.
Gene was preceded in death by his wife Marilynn, his parents and his sister, Joan. He leaves behind his children Rick Evans of Provo, Terry (Randy) Gibson of Provo and Tahlequah, OK, and Dan Vance of Salt Lake City; brothers Mike (Diane) Evans of Helena, MT, and Morgan (Charlyn) Evans of Salt Lake City; sister Colleen Abate of Syracuse, six grandchildren, four great-grandchildren, and a host of nieces, nephews, friends and loved ones.
Memorial services will be held on Tuesday, February 7, at 11 am, 118 East Main, Lehi. Interment will follow in the Lehi Cemetery. Serving as pallbearers will be Rick Evans, Dan Vance, Tyler Evans, Kenny Evans, Renzo Dessens, Noah Garrett, Randy Gibson and Shawn Arthur. Honorary pallbearers are Morgan Evans, Mike Evans, Wyatt Garrett, Bear Morgan Garrett and Treven Evans. Friends and family may call on Monday, February 6, from 6 – 8 pm at Wing Mortuary and one hour prior to services at the mortuary. Online guest book at wingmortuary.com.
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It all happened SO fast.
His services were better and more beautiful than anyone could have asked for.
He was and still is a very very loved man!!!
My amazing Grandfather had been in remission for his lung cancer.
(he did chemo months before and got through it all ( told you he’s amazing))
Christmas Day night he just wasn’t right so he was taking to the ER,
they did a CT scan and found many small tumors in his Brain.
He chose to go through radiation and fight!
he had gotten through chemo and would get through radiation too!!!
At a doctors appointment they had found that he lung cancer was back and had also spread into his lymphoids.
He finished his Radiation and had good days and bad.
we noticed an infection on his hear didn’t look too good and he was admitted to the hospital on a Sunday evening.
He has to go through a heavy round of antibiotics.
I few days later he was transferred into a rehab health center across from the hospital.
Things went downhill from there..
after a few days we fought to have him released so he could be in the comfort of his own home.
Hospice was called.
My loving husband was amazing and helped my grandfather and aunt immensely, he stayed by my grandfathers side all night long meeting his every need.
My Aunt, father, Husband, sister, her 3 children , and I spent Thursday night hang out at grandpas house talking about all of our memories. I am ever so grateful for that peaceful night.
Grandpa wasn’t looking to great and his breathing had changed quite a bit.
we knew the end was in sight, and we were thinking a week maybe two tops
He passed the next morning right before 8:00 am.
just FOUR days after coming home from the rehab nursing center.
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Eugene "Gene" Ruel Evans
(July 26, 1927 - February 3, 2012)
Eugene “Gene” Ruel Evans Eugene Ruel Evans was born July 26, 1927, in Lehi to Ruel and Beulah May (Bone) Evans and passed from this life on February 3, 2012, at his home in Provo after a courageous battle with cancer.
A 1945 graduate of Lehi High School, Gene participated in many sports including football, basketball and tennis, and helped lead his team to the state championship football game his senior season. He attended the University of Utah where he played as a running back for the Utes and graduated with a pharmaceutical degree and worked several years in the area as a pharmacist. Later in life, Gene worked many years as an import specialist for D&L Supply until he retired a few weeks before his death.
He married his sweetheart, Marilynn Kirk Evans in Las Vegas on January 29, 1959.
Gene loved the outdoors and sports of all kinds, most especially football, hunting and golf. He was a proud founding member of Riverside Country Club in Provo where he enjoyed playing golf and the fellowship of others. He had many other hobbies and passions as well, including gardening and photography.
Gene had many friends and spent a lot of time doing quiet acts of service to others without ever seeking recognition or acknowledgment.
Gene was preceded in death by his wife Marilynn, his parents and his sister, Joan. He leaves behind his children Rick Evans of Provo, Terry (Randy) Gibson of Provo and Tahlequah, OK, and Dan Vance of Salt Lake City; brothers Mike (Diane) Evans of Helena, MT, and Morgan (Charlyn) Evans of Salt Lake City; sister Colleen Abate of Syracuse, six grandchildren, four great-grandchildren, and a host of nieces, nephews, friends and loved ones.
Memorial services will be held on Tuesday, February 7, at 11 am, 118 East Main, Lehi. Interment will follow in the Lehi Cemetery. Serving as pallbearers will be Rick Evans, Dan Vance, Tyler Evans, Kenny Evans, Renzo Dessens, Noah Garrett, Randy Gibson and Shawn Arthur. Honorary pallbearers are Morgan Evans, Mike Evans, Wyatt Garrett, Bear Morgan Garrett and Treven Evans. Friends and family may call on Monday, February 6, from 6 – 8 pm at Wing Mortuary and one hour prior to services at the mortuary. Online guest book at wingmortuary.com.
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It all happened SO fast.
His services were better and more beautiful than anyone could have asked for.
He was and still is a very very loved man!!!
Gah
I need to blog more!!!
I go through phases where I Blog a ton then I don't at all for awhile.
CHEERS , here's to trying to blog more!!!
I go through phases where I Blog a ton then I don't at all for awhile.
CHEERS , here's to trying to blog more!!!
Sunday, February 12, 2012
Weekly Goal.
A close friend and fellow blogger does these every week and I'm really gonna try.
This week I want to get myself to the Gym at least twice.
I was doing really good and now not so much.
Still being pretty good on what I eat. And very very little soda.
Actually getting to the point where i'll crave Water. Crazy!!!
Friday, January 13, 2012
2012 .
Feeling like it’s a good day to post some 2012s resolutions!
Get Healthy & LOSE some Weight!!!
I’ve been REALLY good so far, eating healthier, drinking more water, limiting soda to only on Saturdays OR after I’ve done FIFTY miles of mixed cardio at the gym.
9am- Breakfast has been GREEN smoothies- spinach, blueberries, banana, Greek yogurt, ice, & a Splash of OJ.
11am- Snack, an apple or a peanut granola bar.
1pm- Lunch, a sandwich on a whole wheat bagel thin with Lunch meat, 2 tbsp. grated cheese, Spinach & mustard.
3pm- Snack, Greek yogurt, apple, or peanut granola bar whichever one I didn’t have in the morning.
6pm- dinner, lean meat, vegetables, some kinda grain, and glass of skim milk.
And somewhere in there trying to drink 3 liters of water a day it’s 101.4 ounces!!!
I’ve allowed myself to eat what I’d like on the weekends but, I’m still watching what I eat as well. SODA Saturdays.
And it’s been me want sesame chicken on Saturday with a pepsi.
Go to the GYM 2+ a week, need to get better at this.
Being back to work from so much time off for the holidays has worn me out.
But, glad to know I’m doing something by eating better!!!
SAVE MONEY & LEARN TO BUDGET!!
I’ve been really bad at not saving money and watching what we’re actually spending our money on!
Not this year. I will learn. Save save & SAVE. We want to be able to buy a house in 2013!!!
Be Happier, don’t get so sad so easily, and live every day to the fullest.
Well that’s it for today, can’t think of what else. LOL
Get Healthy & LOSE some Weight!!!
I’ve been REALLY good so far, eating healthier, drinking more water, limiting soda to only on Saturdays OR after I’ve done FIFTY miles of mixed cardio at the gym.
9am- Breakfast has been GREEN smoothies- spinach, blueberries, banana, Greek yogurt, ice, & a Splash of OJ.
11am- Snack, an apple or a peanut granola bar.
1pm- Lunch, a sandwich on a whole wheat bagel thin with Lunch meat, 2 tbsp. grated cheese, Spinach & mustard.
3pm- Snack, Greek yogurt, apple, or peanut granola bar whichever one I didn’t have in the morning.
6pm- dinner, lean meat, vegetables, some kinda grain, and glass of skim milk.
And somewhere in there trying to drink 3 liters of water a day it’s 101.4 ounces!!!
I’ve allowed myself to eat what I’d like on the weekends but, I’m still watching what I eat as well. SODA Saturdays.
And it’s been me want sesame chicken on Saturday with a pepsi.
Go to the GYM 2+ a week, need to get better at this.
Being back to work from so much time off for the holidays has worn me out.
But, glad to know I’m doing something by eating better!!!
SAVE MONEY & LEARN TO BUDGET!!
I’ve been really bad at not saving money and watching what we’re actually spending our money on!
Not this year. I will learn. Save save & SAVE. We want to be able to buy a house in 2013!!!
Be Happier, don’t get so sad so easily, and live every day to the fullest.
Well that’s it for today, can’t think of what else. LOL
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Said before but some unsaid..
I know I’ve said it before but, lemme say it again..
Trying to Conceive is HARD !
I know for some of you,
well most of you it wasn't hard and it wasn’t trying!
I have days where I wonder if we’ll ever have babies of our own.
Sad but true.
I try my hardest and stick to my guns,
I know we’ve been pregnant before multiple times in fact but,
it’s just the little one not sticking!!!
I’m weighing a little heavy about 184 eeekkkkk!
so my short term goal is to be healthier, and lose some of this weight!
I’d like to be in the 150’s. I finally have health insurance so I’m planning to see a new doctor in May!
Lose weight, and see a new doc! Get a plan on where to go from there.
I DO KNOW I WANT TO BE PREGNANT BY VALENTINES DAY 2013!!!!
we haven’t been “TRYiNG” this whole time since our last loss Oct, 2010 but there hasn’t been any prevention either. Sixteen months of NOTHING !
I know we’re not in the best financial or living situation but I know no one is EVER 100% ready for a baby!
and I really wouldn’t mind living with my Mother in Law for the first few months after having a baby.
dresser/changing station and a Porta-crib is all that would mainly be needed at that point of course along with some baby gear.
I’ve come a long way, I was in a bad depression for a very long time.
I was on Zoloft for about a year and a half.
it helped but one day I woke up and I was done with it.
(I had forgotten to take it a few times and just decided that was the hint that I was ready to move on without it)
I still have sad/hard days. Some of them can be REALLY SAD and REALLY HARD (like panic attacks with an endless stream of tears)BUT, the harder ones come less and less as time goes on and as I grow into who I’m ment to be.
I know i have days where I can be quite bitter and no one can really understand it.
it’s hard, the hardest thing for me has been Facebook.
I have deleted the App on my phone multiple times.
to see an ultrasound picture and think really…? Didn’t you JUST have a baby?
someone even said to me “why can I be upset with them? Your just genetically different than them”
it really ReALLY bothered me, this was and is a close friend why can’t he understand the pain???
The friends and people I know that have been through fertility all have babies now.
I feel like I’m the only one still without a baby to hold of my own.
I don’t know if these friends and people care to still talk to me about the hurt and sadness.
they have their child to tend to and I don’t know if it’s bothering them.
please speak up, I still need you!
speak up if you too are dealing with fertility issues/repeat pregnancy loss we could all always need a new friend to help us through it all.
I know this isn’t the best writing and it’s very jumbled!
but sometimes proof reading it I end up deleting half of it.
I know it was written because it needed to come out so there. J
much Love, ME!
Feel free as well to email me @
whatbeginswithd@gmail.com
Trying to Conceive is HARD !
I know for some of you,
well most of you it wasn't hard and it wasn’t trying!
I have days where I wonder if we’ll ever have babies of our own.
Sad but true.
I try my hardest and stick to my guns,
I know we’ve been pregnant before multiple times in fact but,
it’s just the little one not sticking!!!
I’m weighing a little heavy about 184 eeekkkkk!
so my short term goal is to be healthier, and lose some of this weight!
I’d like to be in the 150’s. I finally have health insurance so I’m planning to see a new doctor in May!
Lose weight, and see a new doc! Get a plan on where to go from there.
I DO KNOW I WANT TO BE PREGNANT BY VALENTINES DAY 2013!!!!
we haven’t been “TRYiNG” this whole time since our last loss Oct, 2010 but there hasn’t been any prevention either. Sixteen months of NOTHING !
I know we’re not in the best financial or living situation but I know no one is EVER 100% ready for a baby!
and I really wouldn’t mind living with my Mother in Law for the first few months after having a baby.
dresser/changing station and a Porta-crib is all that would mainly be needed at that point of course along with some baby gear.
I’ve come a long way, I was in a bad depression for a very long time.
I was on Zoloft for about a year and a half.
it helped but one day I woke up and I was done with it.
(I had forgotten to take it a few times and just decided that was the hint that I was ready to move on without it)
I still have sad/hard days. Some of them can be REALLY SAD and REALLY HARD (like panic attacks with an endless stream of tears)BUT, the harder ones come less and less as time goes on and as I grow into who I’m ment to be.
I know i have days where I can be quite bitter and no one can really understand it.
it’s hard, the hardest thing for me has been Facebook.
I have deleted the App on my phone multiple times.
to see an ultrasound picture and think really…? Didn’t you JUST have a baby?
someone even said to me “why can I be upset with them? Your just genetically different than them”
it really ReALLY bothered me, this was and is a close friend why can’t he understand the pain???
The friends and people I know that have been through fertility all have babies now.
I feel like I’m the only one still without a baby to hold of my own.
I don’t know if these friends and people care to still talk to me about the hurt and sadness.
they have their child to tend to and I don’t know if it’s bothering them.
please speak up, I still need you!
speak up if you too are dealing with fertility issues/repeat pregnancy loss we could all always need a new friend to help us through it all.
I know this isn’t the best writing and it’s very jumbled!
but sometimes proof reading it I end up deleting half of it.
I know it was written because it needed to come out so there. J
much Love, ME!
Feel free as well to email me @
whatbeginswithd@gmail.com
Saturday, December 17, 2011
Random Wantings.
One of these babies..
in one of these awesome colors!!!
can you believe this awesome stoneware from Rachel Ray @ Target.
A M A Z I N G , it's so dang CUTE!!
Bake ware for the avid baker in me.
along with a Doughnut pan, XL cupcake pan, spring form cake pans...
i love colored tumblers
the chevron ones are to D.i.E. for !
wanting this for my everyday china,
in surfing the web i guess this turned into random kitchen wants.
safe to say maybe its my own kitchen i miss...
when times got tough/tougher we moved into my MiLs , and are planning to save money and stay here for another year- year and a half.
i do NOT want to rent again, i want to save to buy a House or Townhouse !
when times got tough/tougher we moved into my MiLs , and are planning to save money and stay here for another year- year and a half.
i do NOT want to rent again, i want to save to buy a House or Townhouse !
-November Make up .
since i skipped November thought i'd make up and do just the ole generic Thankful post.
a little late but never the least bit less thankful.
#1. My Husband , he's the glue that holds me together.. really he does!
Don't know what i'd do with out him and i know everyone says that but it's ever SO T.R.U.E!!!
#2. My Family --
---- My momma & MiL our always there for us through thick and thin. They help us help ourselves get through it ALL.
---- My Sister Lindsay moved back to Utah from Florida while her husband gets his masters @ BYU (and he's Kickin butt working SO hard) But having her and her 3 little kiddos around has been so much fun and i adore them!!! Her littlest who turned 2 in August starts yelling WaWa!!! THE second he sees me!! I LOVE IT!!!
it's been a joy to see them Often , mostly only on weekends due to work... but hopefully at some point i'll be slightly less depended on and able to leave at a decent time every night.
---- My Sister Tiffiney, her husband Scott, & their FOUR wonderful but very rambunctious BoYS!!! Having them has helped me get through most of my baby hungryness her Littlest Maxwell is the same age as my first loss , and i do remember holding him many times quietly rocking him and tears would just stream from my eyes. He's my little angel , i know he knows he's a little extra special to us!!!
#3. MY JOB , as stated above i'm very depended on at work which i'm VERY grateful for tho at times it can be a little overwhelming. For those of you who don't know i was Promoted in August to a New Term Life Division in the company and Promoted again in November when i became an official Licensed Life insurance agent ! and trust me it was N o T easy getting there but after hours & HOURS & i mean .H.O.U.R.S. of studying i got through it!
and since it is a whole new division of the company it has been rough and im with it from the beginning and it has been a hard start up and i am eager to double this years income for 2012!!!
a little late but never the least bit less thankful.
#1. My Husband , he's the glue that holds me together.. really he does!
Don't know what i'd do with out him and i know everyone says that but it's ever SO T.R.U.E!!!
#2. My Family --
---- My momma & MiL our always there for us through thick and thin. They help us help ourselves get through it ALL.
---- My Sister Lindsay moved back to Utah from Florida while her husband gets his masters @ BYU (and he's Kickin butt working SO hard) But having her and her 3 little kiddos around has been so much fun and i adore them!!! Her littlest who turned 2 in August starts yelling WaWa!!! THE second he sees me!! I LOVE IT!!!
it's been a joy to see them Often , mostly only on weekends due to work... but hopefully at some point i'll be slightly less depended on and able to leave at a decent time every night.
---- My Sister Tiffiney, her husband Scott, & their FOUR wonderful but very rambunctious BoYS!!! Having them has helped me get through most of my baby hungryness her Littlest Maxwell is the same age as my first loss , and i do remember holding him many times quietly rocking him and tears would just stream from my eyes. He's my little angel , i know he knows he's a little extra special to us!!!
#3. MY JOB , as stated above i'm very depended on at work which i'm VERY grateful for tho at times it can be a little overwhelming. For those of you who don't know i was Promoted in August to a New Term Life Division in the company and Promoted again in November when i became an official Licensed Life insurance agent ! and trust me it was N o T easy getting there but after hours & HOURS & i mean .H.O.U.R.S. of studying i got through it!
and since it is a whole new division of the company it has been rough and im with it from the beginning and it has been a hard start up and i am eager to double this years income for 2012!!!
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
OUR STORY
Decided I needed to write a little more about us, so where better than to start but the beginning. :)
--- well Renzo asked me out on I guess you'd call it a pity date (I had just broke up with a mutual friend and they weren't being so nice to me) well we went on out first date March, 18th, 2005 and our second the 19th, and officially "together" the 21st.
From then on we were inseparable!!!
I was a junior and he was a senior in high school.
After a year and a half of dating (September 2006) we rented our first little apartment together, moved shortly after then moved again found something bigger and better.
April, 27th, 2007 -
He proposed!!! Aaahhh... It was amazing!
June, 21st, 2008 -
we were happily married!!!!
August, 2008 -
stopped Birth Control.
(doctor had said since I was on birth control for awhile that it would probably be a year before my body and hormones were normal)
February, 2009 -
NO PERIOD but no positives on a urine test @ home. I know my body I truly KNOW I'm pregnant!!! Go to the clinic on Monday, they do a urine test and it's negative...
I literally have to force the doctor to do a Blood test. She even told me "if this comes back negative which I'm sure it will you will have to pay the lab fees". Ugh... HAted her.
2 days go by and I call the office because I haven't heard from them. They said they will look around for the results and call me back. Next day nothing, day after next I call. Lady tells me if they haven't called by now it was negative. Ummm... Ok.
Hummmm... Sunday I start my "period" .
Sad I really thought i was pregnant.
TUESDAY-- Clinic calls found my blog work and I am pregnant want me to come in for follow up.
Tell the lady I had started... Go in HCG is lower.
Well now I know I can get pregnant... Hopeful.
April, 2009 -
start actually TRYING.
July, 2009 -
Late... Swear I'm pregnant but yet again way late no positive home pregnancy test. Can't get an appointment at the clinic.
Then came a heavy "period"
September, 2010 -
stumble upon EAGeR Trial.
Study trial researching effects of a low dose aspirin during trying to conceive and pregnancy.
October, 11th, 2011 ---
POSITIVE PREGNANCY TEST!!!! AND I MEAN WAY POSITIVE DON'T THINK THE LINE COULD GET ANY DARKER!!!
((( 4 weeks 3 days )))
One of the best days of my life if not THE best!!!
October, 20th, 2010--
Getting ready for bed go pee as usual, slight pink!
Fall asleep crying in my husbands arms.
So scared keep my legs closed so tight all night hoping wishing and praying everything will be ok in the morning.
October, 21st, 2010 --
Woke up to red Red RED.
Go to my doctor the does blood work and sends me to the hospital for an emergency ultrasound.
Have an external and internal ultrasound.
No baby...
((( 5 weeks 6 days )))
PRESENT DAY ---
almost a year later.
Hardest year of my life.
Deep depression.
Anxiety/panic attacks.
Weight Gain.
Severely emotional.
Constant crying.
But I am determined to have a healthy pregnancy!!!
I am made to be a mother.
I want it more than anything.
And definitely more than anyone I know.
I will get pregnant!!!
I will stay pregnant!!!
I will have baby!!!
I will be a mother!!!
We will be parents!!!
My Husband will turn 26 in May , And I will he 24 in June. Our 4 year wedding anniversary will be at the end of June. I want to be pregnant by then.
I will hope.
I will wish.
I will pray.
I will have faith.
- with <3 Laura.
--- well Renzo asked me out on I guess you'd call it a pity date (I had just broke up with a mutual friend and they weren't being so nice to me) well we went on out first date March, 18th, 2005 and our second the 19th, and officially "together" the 21st.
From then on we were inseparable!!!
I was a junior and he was a senior in high school.
After a year and a half of dating (September 2006) we rented our first little apartment together, moved shortly after then moved again found something bigger and better.
April, 27th, 2007 -
He proposed!!! Aaahhh... It was amazing!
June, 21st, 2008 -
we were happily married!!!!
August, 2008 -
stopped Birth Control.
(doctor had said since I was on birth control for awhile that it would probably be a year before my body and hormones were normal)
February, 2009 -
NO PERIOD but no positives on a urine test @ home. I know my body I truly KNOW I'm pregnant!!! Go to the clinic on Monday, they do a urine test and it's negative...
I literally have to force the doctor to do a Blood test. She even told me "if this comes back negative which I'm sure it will you will have to pay the lab fees". Ugh... HAted her.
2 days go by and I call the office because I haven't heard from them. They said they will look around for the results and call me back. Next day nothing, day after next I call. Lady tells me if they haven't called by now it was negative. Ummm... Ok.
Hummmm... Sunday I start my "period" .
Sad I really thought i was pregnant.
TUESDAY-- Clinic calls found my blog work and I am pregnant want me to come in for follow up.
Tell the lady I had started... Go in HCG is lower.
Well now I know I can get pregnant... Hopeful.
April, 2009 -
start actually TRYING.
July, 2009 -
Late... Swear I'm pregnant but yet again way late no positive home pregnancy test. Can't get an appointment at the clinic.
Then came a heavy "period"
September, 2010 -
stumble upon EAGeR Trial.
Study trial researching effects of a low dose aspirin during trying to conceive and pregnancy.
October, 11th, 2011 ---
POSITIVE PREGNANCY TEST!!!! AND I MEAN WAY POSITIVE DON'T THINK THE LINE COULD GET ANY DARKER!!!
((( 4 weeks 3 days )))
One of the best days of my life if not THE best!!!
October, 20th, 2010--
Getting ready for bed go pee as usual, slight pink!
Fall asleep crying in my husbands arms.
So scared keep my legs closed so tight all night hoping wishing and praying everything will be ok in the morning.
October, 21st, 2010 --
Woke up to red Red RED.
Go to my doctor the does blood work and sends me to the hospital for an emergency ultrasound.
Have an external and internal ultrasound.
No baby...
((( 5 weeks 6 days )))
PRESENT DAY ---
almost a year later.
Hardest year of my life.
Deep depression.
Anxiety/panic attacks.
Weight Gain.
Severely emotional.
Constant crying.
But I am determined to have a healthy pregnancy!!!
I am made to be a mother.
I want it more than anything.
And definitely more than anyone I know.
I will get pregnant!!!
I will stay pregnant!!!
I will have baby!!!
I will be a mother!!!
We will be parents!!!
My Husband will turn 26 in May , And I will he 24 in June. Our 4 year wedding anniversary will be at the end of June. I want to be pregnant by then.
I will hope.
I will wish.
I will pray.
I will have faith.
- with <3 Laura.
Monday, September 5, 2011
It has been the hardest thing in my life ,
I have wanted to be a mother for as long as I can remember it has been the only thing I've ever really truly wanted!!!
And not being able to achieve a healthy pregnancy and become the mother I so ever want to be is literally slowly killing me from the inside out.
Labor days weekend was full of events surrounded with friends and family but at the end of the day and I look back and still felt so alone/lonely.
- going to a wedding and seeing happy couples gaga over the baby and the family so utterly happy over the child. Seeing the bride and groom and thinking to yourself there goes another couple who will have babies before we do...
- @ the wedding being asked how long my husband and I have been married/been together (married over three , together six and a half). And you don't have children? Do you not want them? Are you guys trying???..... I just wanted to scream so loud. I went silent and held back floods of tears while my husband can see and feel the pain in my expression. It's gotten to the point where he doesn't even know what to do anymore.
- being ditched by friends on a Saturday night and all I do is cry for hours and wish I had a child to come home to.
- having a lazy Sunday with my husband but occasionally tearing up because it still feels lonely besides we've been together six and a half years already our Sunday's have become too quite.
- Sunday dinner with my momma and I'm told of multiple pregnancy announcements... I want to yell at her and tell her I don't care , I don't want to hear everyone but me is happily with child.
- going to a parade with family all the other grandchildren and little cousins around still alone.. None of them are my babies none of them come home with me at the end of the night.
It's a complete ramble but this needs out.
I cry too much
I hope too far
I'm angry much too often
I blame myself
I don't pray enough
- Laura.
I have wanted to be a mother for as long as I can remember it has been the only thing I've ever really truly wanted!!!
And not being able to achieve a healthy pregnancy and become the mother I so ever want to be is literally slowly killing me from the inside out.
Labor days weekend was full of events surrounded with friends and family but at the end of the day and I look back and still felt so alone/lonely.
- going to a wedding and seeing happy couples gaga over the baby and the family so utterly happy over the child. Seeing the bride and groom and thinking to yourself there goes another couple who will have babies before we do...
- @ the wedding being asked how long my husband and I have been married/been together (married over three , together six and a half). And you don't have children? Do you not want them? Are you guys trying???..... I just wanted to scream so loud. I went silent and held back floods of tears while my husband can see and feel the pain in my expression. It's gotten to the point where he doesn't even know what to do anymore.
- being ditched by friends on a Saturday night and all I do is cry for hours and wish I had a child to come home to.
- having a lazy Sunday with my husband but occasionally tearing up because it still feels lonely besides we've been together six and a half years already our Sunday's have become too quite.
- Sunday dinner with my momma and I'm told of multiple pregnancy announcements... I want to yell at her and tell her I don't care , I don't want to hear everyone but me is happily with child.
- going to a parade with family all the other grandchildren and little cousins around still alone.. None of them are my babies none of them come home with me at the end of the night.
It's a complete ramble but this needs out.
I cry too much
I hope too far
I'm angry much too often
I blame myself
I don't pray enough
- Laura.
Monday, August 1, 2011
• Ramblings •
Recently –
I’ve been wanting to get into some hobbies to keep myself busy. Keep this girls brain off of babies and what not… I’ve wanted to Sew but, don’t have a sewing machine at the moment…
(((I did find one on sale @ Costco & if it happens to still be there in about 3 weeks I’ll be buying one)))
because I’m really wanting to make THIS really really REALLY extremely cute quit my Friend Erikas awesome Momma made for their beautiful baby GirlELOISE !
--anyways I want to make this quilt for our Room with Grays, Reds,Yellows, and Blacks.
- I would like one more color but can’t decide between a Purple ,Green , or Turquoise
leaning towards the GREEN the most & Turquoise is coming in second .
only because they are easier colors to find cute fabrics.
(http://te-senneff.blogspot.com/2011/07/i-cant-believe-our-girl-is-month-and.html )
p.s. if you’re not reading Erikas wonderful blog you’re missing out!!!
( http://te-senneff.blogspot.com/ )
--- So instead of sewing right now I guess you can say I’ve been baking… Cupcakes! We have had a lot of summer BBQs to attend and I LOVE to make dessert any chance I get.
I’ve got all into making cupcakes and making sure they look and taste great. Researching recipes and reading all the comments posted. Making little changes if I feel it’s needed. YUM ! And in the end I do it for me but after all the cooking and what not most of the time I don’t even end up eating any if so very little. My satisfaction from it is all the positive feed back from friends and family. Seeing them enjoy it so much. Praising me on how wonderful it is. It swells my heart , I’d rather others enjoy it than myself… and I’ve got a SWEET tooth TRUST me!!! But, really after putting all the work into it I don’t feel I need to eat it. I don’t care for that kind of sweet satisfaction. (Get it)
So I’ll share the two awesome recipes I’ve used most recently and everyone has LOVED!!!
Don’t even think anything bad could be said they are to d-i-e for !
This first one is a Cake recipe that I found and made it into cupcakes. More BBQ friendly.
this recipe is from picky-palate.com
Direct Link : http://picky-palate.com/2009/05/12/chocolate-lovin-cream-centered/
Chocolate Lovin’ Cream Centered Cake
- 1 box devils food cake mix
- 4 eggs
- 6 oz vanilla lowfat yogurt
- 1 pkg chocolate instant pudding mix (small box)
- 1/2 Cup oil
- 1/2 Cup water
- 1 bag Reeses Peanut Butter Cup baking pieces
(or use cut up candy pieces or even choc chips)
( I USE CHOCOLATE CHIPS )
Cream Cheese Frosting -
- 8 oz softened cream cheese
- 1 stick softened butter
- 2 Cups powdered sugar
1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees F. Place cake mix, eggs, yogurt, pudding mix, oil and water into stand mixer. Mix on medium-low for 2 minutes or until well combined. Slowly add in baking chips. Pour into greased Oreo cake pans (or 2 9 inch pans). Bake for 25-35 minutes or until toothpick comes out clean from center. Let cool completely, then invert onto wax paper.
2. To prepare frosting, beat cream cheese and butter until smooth. Slowly add in powdered sugar until smooth. Spread frosting over bottom cake then place second cake on top. Chill until serving.
Yum yum yummmmmmmm!!!!
want cute cupcake wrappers like those… ZURCHERS ! ! !
the inside…
this recipe is from picky-palate.com
Direct link: http://picky-palate.com/2010/08/23/fluffer-oreo-birthday-boy-cupcakes/
Fluffer-Oreo Birthday Boy Cupcakes
- 1 yellow cake mix
- 1/2 Cup water
- 1/2 Cup canola or vegetable oil
- 4 eggs
- 1 box instant vanilla pudding mix
- 4 oz softened cream cheese
- 5 Oreo Cookies, crushed plus 12-24 whole Oreos to layer inside cupcakes
- 1/2 Cup marshmallow cream plus 1/2 Cup to layer
- Cream Cheese Frosting See the link for recipe (or above in MY post )
- 5 or so Oreos crushed to sprinkle over each frosted Cupcake
1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees F. Using your stand mixer, beat the cake mix, water, oil, eggs, pudding mix, cream cheese, 5 crushed oreos and 1/2 Cup Marshmallow cream until well combined, about 1 minute.
2. Line your Texas Size Muffin Tin with paper liners and place 2 Tablespoons of batter into the bottom of each cup. Layer with an Oreo then a dollop of marshmallow cream, 2 more tablespoons of batter then another Oreo and dollop of marshmallow cream. Top with 2 more Tablespoons of cupcake batter, should be about 3/4 full. Don’t fill more than that or you’ll have a mess in your oven 
NOTE: If you are using a normal size cupcake pan, only layer one Oreo and one dollop of marshmallow cream.
3. Bake for 25-27 minutes (for Texas Size Pan 18-22 minutes for normal size cupcake pan, or until just golden brown and cooked through. Let cool completely. Frost and sprinkle with crushed oreos.
-12 Texas Size Cupcakes or 24 normal size cupcakes.
I don’t have a Texas size pan, or a giant. But, after making these I’ve decided I need one!!! They are veryvery good but, were a pain to make in a normal size pan!
any of you have any awesome recipes or recipe websites ?
DO SHARE WITH ME ! ! !
comment below.
I’ll make them and review them for you all!
Saturday, July 16, 2011
Friday, July 8, 2011
•Freedom of Speech•
Truly have thought about making my blog private this week but, I'm not going to because finding blogs like these an people going through the same helps and if I can help someone and be here for someone else I'm doing my good in the world to help another out.
Some people don't think what I write on here is appropriate , or think its all about them...IT IS NOT. (don't be full of yourself)
These are my feelings , thoughts and trials. If you don't like it people don't read it.
I truly wish that these people could experience the trials and pain I've been through!
I bet they wouldn't be bring my personal life and blog up at work if they truly knew it.
There for this is MY FREEDOM OF SPEECH that my forefathers Put into the constitution and bill of rights.
I do feel I keep a filter on when I write and do keep other people in mind , do remember anything and everything here is for ME .
You are the one choosing to read and spread incorrect rumors about what I write on here and you choosing to do that is wrong.
good luck . . .
I will continue to write on here what I want when I want.
Thank you.
- with <3 Laura.
Some people don't think what I write on here is appropriate , or think its all about them...IT IS NOT. (don't be full of yourself)
These are my feelings , thoughts and trials. If you don't like it people don't read it.
I truly wish that these people could experience the trials and pain I've been through!
I bet they wouldn't be bring my personal life and blog up at work if they truly knew it.
There for this is MY FREEDOM OF SPEECH that my forefathers Put into the constitution and bill of rights.
I do feel I keep a filter on when I write and do keep other people in mind , do remember anything and everything here is for ME .
You are the one choosing to read and spread incorrect rumors about what I write on here and you choosing to do that is wrong.
good luck . . .
I will continue to write on here what I want when I want.
Thank you.
- with <3 Laura.
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
TTC is HARD & randomness
So lately I think my depression has gotten even worse!!!
My due date for my most recent pregnancy was early last week and I've been nothing but rude to some people cuz they're pregnant. ( not good I know )
We have officially been trying to conceive for TOO long now (just over 2 years) almost 3 if you count when we well I stopped taking BC.
Gained too much weight UGH...
thinking about doing Jillian Michaels 30 day shred....
From pre pregnancy the first one in deb 2009, I've gained a little over 40 ugh that's right freaking FORTY pounds.
Depression well get ya and get you good. Why can't I be back in my depression stage where I was losing weight and was anoxic/bulimic ?
Or actually finally have a healthy pregnancy and not be depressed ALL the time!!!!!
I'll talk morning/all day sickness any day gratefully.
seriously even work is HARD, My boss hired another pregnant chick oh and sat her right next to me. Ummm hello???
Or anytime at work when I'm not feeling great the girls all try and get into my head saying maybe you're pregnant???
Then here I am over analyzing every little thing... Hummmm when were we intimate last??
It's so sad when you can't even remember...
And it sucks to not feel great and think every little thing c o u l d be a pregnancy symptom...ugh!!!
I know I'm going to be the best momma so why can't I have a baby... Why do all thaws crack heads and teens get babies I hate it... I really do!!!
I tired of being sad all of the time , the littlest thing will make me cry.
Well enough sap and ranting for the day
- with <3 Laura.
My due date for my most recent pregnancy was early last week and I've been nothing but rude to some people cuz they're pregnant. ( not good I know )
We have officially been trying to conceive for TOO long now (just over 2 years) almost 3 if you count when we well I stopped taking BC.
Gained too much weight UGH...
thinking about doing Jillian Michaels 30 day shred....
From pre pregnancy the first one in deb 2009, I've gained a little over 40 ugh that's right freaking FORTY pounds.
Depression well get ya and get you good. Why can't I be back in my depression stage where I was losing weight and was anoxic/bulimic ?
Or actually finally have a healthy pregnancy and not be depressed ALL the time!!!!!
I'll talk morning/all day sickness any day gratefully.
seriously even work is HARD, My boss hired another pregnant chick oh and sat her right next to me. Ummm hello???
Or anytime at work when I'm not feeling great the girls all try and get into my head saying maybe you're pregnant???
Then here I am over analyzing every little thing... Hummmm when were we intimate last??
It's so sad when you can't even remember...
And it sucks to not feel great and think every little thing c o u l d be a pregnancy symptom...ugh!!!
I know I'm going to be the best momma so why can't I have a baby... Why do all thaws crack heads and teens get babies I hate it... I really do!!!
I tired of being sad all of the time , the littlest thing will make me cry.
Well enough sap and ranting for the day
- with <3 Laura.
Monday, June 20, 2011
Saturday, June 11, 2011
nadda
I always feel like such a cruddy blogger for never writting but, really i just don't have anything to write about.
-- hummm... it's finally summer around here .
i was sssssoooooooo tired of the Hot , COLd , rainy Rainy RAINY , Hot , cool , COLD shizzz.
it's in the high 70's today and were going to be headed to LAGOON soon. hopefully it actually works out.
----- for my birthday we were planning on a big group to the ZOO and literally on our way up there EVERYONE (except for Liz((she's the best ever ever EVER)) canceled out on us.. BuMMeR!!!
- - - i'm still working at the same ole Insurance Call center .
( what can i do , it's good pay and it's A JOB )
i do have a hopeful interview within the next week and a half!!!!
((please please please get THIS JOB))
- as for now no Babies and doesn't look it'll be for awhile...
well off to lagoon
Monday, April 25, 2011
•Slacker, ShMacker•
I've been a total blogging slacker, I feel like I don't ever have anything interesting / blogging worthy. No kiddos doing things or funny stories. Just a husband and wife Trying to get by, who may or may not ever have children.
I don't feel as if anyone wants to read how depressing it can be, how anxiety levels can shoot through the roof over something so stupid. Hormones are mean , and I don't know if I believe in a higher power anymore...
Because this is horrible and to intentionally put someone through this over and over again is ruthless .
I have days where my chest is heavy and my heart feels completely broken.
And who cares about intimacy I feel like the queen of celibacy . . .
I don't feel as if anyone wants to read how depressing it can be, how anxiety levels can shoot through the roof over something so stupid. Hormones are mean , and I don't know if I believe in a higher power anymore...
Because this is horrible and to intentionally put someone through this over and over again is ruthless .
I have days where my chest is heavy and my heart feels completely broken.
And who cares about intimacy I feel like the queen of celibacy . . .
Sunday, March 27, 2011
random wants
THESE SHOES
Grey Nail Polish(can't seem to find the right shade)
COACH POPPY - Smells DELiSH!!!
THIS PUPPY, someday when i have a Back Yard.
this COLOR of hair.
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
*house hungry*
lately since we're done TTC (trying to conceive) at least for a few months..
i've been SUPER house hungry...
I'd gladly take this house, i'm in LOVE with it.
Everytime they show it on MODERN FAMILY i tell Renzo
"I WANT THAT HOUSE" :(
a living room i like, would change some things but love the color pallet.
a relaxing Bathroom.
and if you know me i LOVE LOVE LOVE GREEN!!!!!
Comfy Bedroom full of LOVE,
thinking our next bedroom will be Grey & Teal , Or Grey & Purple!!!
i've been SUPER house hungry...
I'd gladly take this house, i'm in LOVE with it.
Everytime they show it on MODERN FAMILY i tell Renzo
"I WANT THAT HOUSE" :(
a living room i like, would change some things but love the color pallet.
a relaxing Bathroom.
and if you know me i LOVE LOVE LOVE GREEN!!!!!
Comfy Bedroom full of LOVE,
thinking our next bedroom will be Grey & Teal , Or Grey & Purple!!!
Sunday, March 13, 2011
* C * H * A * N * G * E * S *
hey look at the changes around here,
changed the URL as well to
whatbeginswithd.blogspot.com
got sick of
laura-and-renzo.blogspot.com
changed my blog layout and template like 10 times...
can't find anything i REALLY like , need to teach myself how to make and design them myself since i like to change it SO MUCH!!!
hopefully i'll feel like blogging more sometime soon.
so FOLLOW my blog and leave comments so i know you're here!
changed the URL as well to
whatbeginswithd.blogspot.com
got sick of
laura-and-renzo.blogspot.com
changed my blog layout and template like 10 times...
can't find anything i REALLY like , need to teach myself how to make and design them myself since i like to change it SO MUCH!!!
hopefully i'll feel like blogging more sometime soon.
so FOLLOW my blog and leave comments so i know you're here!
Monday, January 17, 2011
Sunday, January 9, 2011
...
17 weeks and missing you!!!
It hAs been almost 12 weeks ,
Not pregnant again , and do think it'll be awhile.
It was too good to be TRuE.
But , know I DO love you.
It hAs been almost 12 weeks ,
Not pregnant again , and do think it'll be awhile.
It was too good to be TRuE.
But , know I DO love you.
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Can't Sleep...
Well haven't really known what to write about since our loss . . .
It's been about two months now and I'm sure glad it has gone by FAST.
Doctor said we were fine to wait a full cycle before we were ok to Try to Again .
We're not pregnant yet but, i'm hoping the new year brings some luck with it for us. I would really like to be pregnant by our 3rd anniversery in June.
--- well as for us we've just been working and getting ready for Christmas.
I'm still working with Insurance Marketing Stratgies and am getting close to my ONE year mark with them.
Renzo is doing Snow Removal
( why I was up @ 2:50am & can't sleep )
so pray for LoTS of Snow , we're very much in need of the hours.
Also I'll be able to BLOG more now , figured out how to do it on my itouch :D
It's been about two months now and I'm sure glad it has gone by FAST.
Doctor said we were fine to wait a full cycle before we were ok to Try to Again .
We're not pregnant yet but, i'm hoping the new year brings some luck with it for us. I would really like to be pregnant by our 3rd anniversery in June.
--- well as for us we've just been working and getting ready for Christmas.
I'm still working with Insurance Marketing Stratgies and am getting close to my ONE year mark with them.
Renzo is doing Snow Removal
( why I was up @ 2:50am & can't sleep )
so pray for LoTS of Snow , we're very much in need of the hours.
Also I'll be able to BLOG more now , figured out how to do it on my itouch :D
Saturday, October 23, 2010
numb
i seriously don't know how to feel right now, i am NUMB, and the cramps and horrible and very painful!
...spotted Thursday night and woke up to red Red RED in the morning, went to the doctors right away , had blood work done and was sent in for an emergency Ultrasound, had an Internal and External ultrasound to find NO baby... they're guessing i have a Blighted Ovum .
-- this is from AmericanPregnancy.org
What is a blighted ovum? A blighted ovum (also known as “anembryonic pregnancy”) happens when a fertilized egg attaches itself to the uterine wall, but the embryo does not develop. Cells develop to form the pregnancy sac, but not the embryo itself. A blighted ovum usually occurs within the first trimester before a woman knows she is pregnant. A high level of chromosome abnormalities usually causes a woman’s body to naturally miscarry.
How do I know if I am having or have had a blighted ovum? A blighted ovum can occur very early in pregnancy, before most women even know that they are pregnant. You may experience signs of pregnancy such as a missed or late menstrual period and even a positive pregnancy test. It is possible that you may have minor abdominal cramps, minor vaginal spotting or bleeding. As with a normal period, your body may flush the uterine lining, but your period may be a little heavier than usual. Many women assume their pregnancies are on track because their hCG levels are increasing. The placenta can continue to grow and support itself without a baby for a short time, and pregnancy hormones can continue to rise, which would lead a woman to believe she is still pregnant. A diagnosis is usually not made until an ultrasound test shows either an empty womb or an empty birth sac. Your purchase supports the APA
What causes a blighted ovum? A blighted ovum is the cause of about 50% of first trimester miscarriages and is usually the result of chromosomal problems. A woman’s body recognizes abnormal chromosomes in a fetus and naturally does not try to continue the pregnancy because the fetus will not develop into a normal, healthy baby. This can be caused by abnormal cell division, or poor quality sperm or egg.
Thursday, October 21, 2010
**excitement & surprise**
I seriously can not believe it, we're expecting!!* It's a huge surprise because we've been told by other doctors it wouldn't happen on our own, that we'd need hormone therapy to get pregnant! We decided we'd look into it towards the end of next year. Little did we know life had other plans for us! We're due June, 19th give or take a few days. I'm 5 weeks 4 days today!!! We have an early ultrasound on Thursday the 28th and time is going by so slow. i'm so excited and anxious to see our little bug, and to know that everything is going good and healthy!
Thursday, July 8, 2010
LAKE POWELL
I got the chance to go to Lake Powell with My favorite Cousin and her Cute Cute KIDS!!!
and we had a Blast!!! can't wait to go again next summer with my friends!
Oh and if you can't tell i LOVE my Little Mackey!!! ( max )
and we had a Blast!!! can't wait to go again next summer with my friends!
Oh and if you can't tell i LOVE my Little Mackey!!! ( max )
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
wordless...
decided to write on here more and be more OPEN . . .
it's a hard thing... because, i feel like no one would like to read and know what's going on!
but, i'll jump in with both feet and just share a little here and there.
----- Here i go for now... i have been fighting a battle, a battle of Infertility !
and it's winning... i fight for the breath to share but, can't.
i feel sometimes that it's ruling my life and marriage and it's got a tight hold on us... with tears and anger , depression and hope , love and Loss...
and now most of the time it's too much. too much to handle... too much to deal with...
and lately i start to wonder if it'll be like this forever, just a dream, i figment of my imagination.
-- will i ever be a mother?
-- will i ever see those two lines?
-- will there ever be a flutter in my belly?
right now , i don't know.
but, someone said writing will help...
help ease the mind and soul.
we'll see.
ta ta for now, until next time
it's a hard thing... because, i feel like no one would like to read and know what's going on!
but, i'll jump in with both feet and just share a little here and there.
----- Here i go for now... i have been fighting a battle, a battle of Infertility !
and it's winning... i fight for the breath to share but, can't.
i feel sometimes that it's ruling my life and marriage and it's got a tight hold on us... with tears and anger , depression and hope , love and Loss...
and now most of the time it's too much. too much to handle... too much to deal with...
and lately i start to wonder if it'll be like this forever, just a dream, i figment of my imagination.
-- will i ever be a mother?
-- will i ever see those two lines?
-- will there ever be a flutter in my belly?
right now , i don't know.
but, someone said writing will help...
help ease the mind and soul.
we'll see.
ta ta for now, until next time
Sunday, March 21, 2010
eh.
so i feel bad that i never actually post about anything...
just little thing here and there!
but, we got internet yesterday so no worries i will get better... EVENTUALLY :)
- work is going great and i guess i'm pretty good at it. i've made all my bonuses!
- i started a second Job this week as well. just a little thing here and there. I now cocktail waitress at the ELKS Lodge for events. and Boy did i wake up a little sore this morning ( i've never had a serving job at all) a tray full of drinks does put some strain on the Arm. but i am ever so grateful for it.
- i have also decided i am going to put all my money from the ELKS Lodge job in a Savings account as well as 50 dollars from each one of Renzo and I's paycheck! ;)
(good luck to me on that one) haha
- we signed another contract at our crappy apartments till JULY. so we could save money and look really hard into our next living quarters . i don't really want to move till we can buy but, maybe just one more time...
- Renzo is thinking long and hard about Joining the Military and i really think we are gonna do it. it's something he really wants to do and i think it'll help us jump start our life to where we need to be
eh i think that's a pretty good update and i'll get better at this soon
i love you all and hope you're having a wonderful 2010 :)
goodbye for now!
just little thing here and there!
but, we got internet yesterday so no worries i will get better... EVENTUALLY :)
- work is going great and i guess i'm pretty good at it. i've made all my bonuses!
- i started a second Job this week as well. just a little thing here and there. I now cocktail waitress at the ELKS Lodge for events. and Boy did i wake up a little sore this morning ( i've never had a serving job at all) a tray full of drinks does put some strain on the Arm. but i am ever so grateful for it.
- i have also decided i am going to put all my money from the ELKS Lodge job in a Savings account as well as 50 dollars from each one of Renzo and I's paycheck! ;)
(good luck to me on that one) haha
- we signed another contract at our crappy apartments till JULY. so we could save money and look really hard into our next living quarters . i don't really want to move till we can buy but, maybe just one more time...
- Renzo is thinking long and hard about Joining the Military and i really think we are gonna do it. it's something he really wants to do and i think it'll help us jump start our life to where we need to be
eh i think that's a pretty good update and i'll get better at this soon
i love you all and hope you're having a wonderful 2010 :)
goodbye for now!
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
got the job!!!!!
and LOVING it!!!
it really couldn't have came at a better time. i'm so greatful and feel blessed to have found a full time Job with great pay!
THANK GOODNESS
it really couldn't have came at a better time. i'm so greatful and feel blessed to have found a full time Job with great pay!
THANK GOODNESS
Thursday, February 18, 2010
Job ???
well i had a Job interview today that went really well.
I won't hear anything till Monday evening !
but, our fingers out crossed!
I won't hear anything till Monday evening !
but, our fingers out crossed!
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
looking forword to 2010
well the year is over and lets hope the new one brings better LUCK with it.
Renzo and I were both laid off the week before thanksgiving.
He still has his night job and i qualified for unemployment !
I've seriously been sending 20 copies of my Resume out every other day.
and i've only had 1 job interview that i didn't get a call back for :(
i'm just hoping to find something soon it's been almost 8 weeks!!!
so if anyone knows of something please let me know .
Renzo and I were both laid off the week before thanksgiving.
He still has his night job and i qualified for unemployment !
I've seriously been sending 20 copies of my Resume out every other day.
and i've only had 1 job interview that i didn't get a call back for :(
i'm just hoping to find something soon it's been almost 8 weeks!!!
so if anyone knows of something please let me know .
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
CATCHiNG UP
hey so i just realized i haven't posted anything i a REALLY LONG time..
it's really hard when you don't have Kids to post often because there's not much going on.
-- Renzo is now working two full time jobs.
it's really hard not having him home very much i get lonely! He's gone from about 10:30pm-4:00pm the next day!!!
-- and i was Laid Off from the School District in Late August , started working at IN THE PAINT in Springville and only ended up being there for 6 weeks before i was Laid Off there. it's very frustrating!!! -- i was lucky enough to get a Job at Renzos work but, that might just be through the Holidays. *** my fingers are crossed -- i'd like to stay there as long as possible.
sorry it's been so long.. Hope this helps!
it's really hard when you don't have Kids to post often because there's not much going on.
-- Renzo is now working two full time jobs.
it's really hard not having him home very much i get lonely! He's gone from about 10:30pm-4:00pm the next day!!!
-- and i was Laid Off from the School District in Late August , started working at IN THE PAINT in Springville and only ended up being there for 6 weeks before i was Laid Off there. it's very frustrating!!! -- i was lucky enough to get a Job at Renzos work but, that might just be through the Holidays. *** my fingers are crossed -- i'd like to stay there as long as possible.
sorry it's been so long.. Hope this helps!
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
CUTE FACES
oh my GOSH i MISS these CUTE LITTLE FACES SO MUCH!!!
Can't wait to save some money & give these CUTE little FACES
some great BiG KiSSES!!!
Monday, August 17, 2009
BABY COLE
yeah i have a new Nephew who's SO CUTE!!!
oh man i can't wait to see this little guy in person!
oh man i can't wait to see this little guy in person!I Love you COLE ! ! !
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
swimming with the Boys!!!
My cousin Tiffiney and her 3 cute little boys came swimming!!!
if you can't tell i LOVE them all more than anything!!!
if you can't tell i LOVE them all more than anything!!!
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